It has been a long absence ... I do not know where to start.

 The last 8 and a half months have been the most special months of my life with our baby Nahuel growing inside ... this sweet special being seemed to understand every word we told him; he seemed to enjoy our music and our kind words... he was like a little angel of hope and joy in every single sense of the word.
  Then, unexpectedly, on November 13, when I was 36 weeks pregnant, a severe pain in my belly woke me up and that night was the worst of my life. By the time we got to the hospital our baby had gone  . I was very sick too and almost lost my life in the process. I am not going into any more details...
  The support we are getting from our friends and co-workers is amazing... a real blessing in the confusion we are going through at this time...

This is a poem I wrote to our baby Nahuel when I was only 12 weeks pregnant...

To you

You are there

lying peacefully

within an ocean of silence,

growing there

like a hidden tree

in the forest of life,

floating among the angels

of our dreams...

You,

latent soul,

in the darkness of my womb

where nobody can see you.

You,

ethereal being,

flying over everyone and everything.

If there is good in everyone

switch on the lights of a new sunrise.

Let us be

the source of joy and restless growth.

Let yourself

live your journey

peacefully within

that mystery that nobody can reach...

Today I need to cry... Tomorrow  will be  a month since your departure, sweet baby Nahuel, angel of the heavens... How hard life is!  Your daddy and I cannot stop missing you...

 We need to thank you for those precious months that you have given us.
 Thank you for showing me what it feels to carry a human being inside my body for almost nine months. Thank you for touching us with happpiness and bliss...
  We want to say thank you for making us parents for the first time, for letting me know what maternal love feels like...
  Thank you for switching on the lights of  a new sunrise: we have discovered special people who came to our rescue now that our lives are upside down. We can also let go of others that we  considered friends (and were not).
 Sweet baby, Nahuel, I have never seen your eyes open or heard you cry but I have felt your movements inside my body,  and I could guess your smile. You could hear our voice and our music and you knew how to reply. You touched us so deeply... you transformed our lives.

  Nahuel, angel of the stars, we will always take care of you deep in our hearts...